Little Dark Cloud & Red Puma - #3 - Terrors & Setups - 39 (C)

So why?

Why my heart isn't there anymore?

(I mean in comic books and drawing...)

Maybe it hasn't been there for a while...

For a long time...

And the reason(s)?

Well, the reasons, wrong or right are those:

(well, those I figured out)

-The time it takes to make a book.

People may not know the time it takes to make a book, a drawing, a painting...

My mother told me once how much she was surprised how long it took to make one page, one book. People, I mean most people, don't know the time it takes to make a drawing. They assume it flows effortlessly out of your hand with no time.

-The time that other projects take.

Yup because I have a lot of ideas... Not only in the drawing area of expertise.

Of course, I have plenty ideas for this serie, but also for other comic book series, but also children books, illustrations, paintings...

But also in music, even thought I suck at it and I have to learn a lot and practice a lot...

-The lack of money to finance the books.

 I like to know where I am going, to plan things. I know things will not go the way I planned, but still, when I know where I am going, I can deal with the hickups later and better.

And as for now the money is a bit tight and this book is selfpublished...

I have to pay for the flats, a stock of books...

Which brings us to the next problem... 

-The lack of reconnaissance.

 I draw these and sometimes I wonder "what does it bring me?"

I take the time to bring these to life, I put money in it...

And then...

Then?

Then I wished more people would read it.

More people would get to know it.

But...

I am not good at promoting.

And there are a lot of books published.

I should do more...

But maybe I am lazy, maybe it's not me, maybe I'm scared...

So I don't.

And I keep wishing it would bring some money.

If at least it would cover the fees and bring 1000$...

But no sales, no money...

And at some point it starts piling up...

This may look like a crybaby list,

but hey, I am trying to keep this blog alive...

And to share also the reasons,

but also to get things out of my mind in a way...